Day of monotony

Long ago I was not. This is because, unfortunately, the lack of time. Now being in a class 4 technical college I have very little time for myself especially since I work every weekend. For me nothing has changed. Already working elsewhere, but other than that it's all the same. I still sometimes moments when I'm sick of everything but I try not to think about it although sometimes it is very heavy. However, I know that there are people that I can count. One such person is my sister, niece currently studying and living in Olsztyn, but sometimes arrives. Life is not easy, always throws us the logs under your feet. Sometimes we laugh, and for a while we cry. I, being the person who survives everything I have a harder time because everything in excess sometimes feel but never show what I feel with the other, all the feelings of the soul in itself. I can not in front of anyone to open enough to be honest to pain talk, say what you really feel. This is beyond my capabilities. Terribly concerned about others and I worry about them, but I can not share their problems with others. Sometimes we have moments where we have enough, I at least I have. A moment when I would like someone all say release it with each other, stop choke but I can not simply. I'm afraid that I will become a public persona, that someone did not treat seriously what I say, and then it's more being . . .

Depression :-( My live is good for nothing

Not long ago I have discussed here. The reason was simply had too little time to devote to writing. Now the storm got me depression, sadness, frustration. I still cry when I think about how I use and how I've given up on actually colleague. I do not know whether you did I mention but may I am deputy head at the store. My head and knew it well that from September back to school and my lesson plan can be so arranged, that finish late and did not have the problem, argued that somehow we'll manage. About a month ago, however, have stated that they do not want to I was further Deputy and that the search will be on my place someone, and I have to go to work on weekends, which is a position that really does not exist, the position from which I started. Today I learned that I can be moved to another shop because two people on weekends may not be. I feel horrible because I tried to as I could, everything I learned and I that I can cope. I did the errors because no one has trained me as an alternate, from mistakes to teach everyone. So many tears I lost because I really care about working in this store and this store. This is my first job and I know that's not there but I don't want to simply be moved to a different shop and learn everything from scratch, read with the composition. I doubt that I was so great and the friendly atmosphere which is currently. I'm broken down and I do not know what to do. Next month comes my successor, Deputy Head of the new, I obviously I need this to lose because I have less hours which is associated with lower earnings. If they wanted to move me to another store I thought about after talking directly with the boss about it. Now it is not about position because I can recover them as I finish school in April, and I can adapt to the new Deputy, it's just a post but it certainly will not be able to a new Deputy as much as me and knew so much about the brand and the customer. On the one hand, I feel like quitting this job, but I don't want to leave because they were drawn to this store where great coping and know everything, and the people I work with. I do not know how I help it if I take, I'm afraid. :(

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Back to life, to write

Hello after a long time of interruptions caused by the lack of a laptop, a Tablet would be hard to write me after all. What has changed for me? Actually, it's still I am alone I am working as Deputy Head of the clothing in the living room, I had recently quite a few problems related to work, unfortunately, Currently working I lose the urge to try to, I do not know why but after the last incident that was upsetting to me does not work to me as well as it used to be. Now still looks to me, looks at me which is horrible because the envy of other people and lies in work broke. Sometimes I have the feeling that you've been searching for someone else in my place, that someone will find it just me exempt. It worries me because with the current Director despite small clashes both orally very well and also with the other girls at work, and actually one because the current new girl is some strange, not done me good impression so far, I've noticed that the same thought and my friend from work, with that great to me also works and gets along. Currently working so far, almost every day I got used to this, and now in the holidays as I work after 10 hours I will have a lot of free. I have completely no idea how to use this time to the truth. And going back in the future for two months will again be school and unfortunately being in 4th grade school I will have problem to be able to work out a month 180 hours as the Deputy what bothers me even more because I do not want to give up the position or work because currently in Poland after graduation not having knowledge is to anyone, it is not so easy.