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Hi,

I'm often not here and I don't write anything. Unfortunately, my life is getting worse and worse. I thought for a while that it was good. . . . However, it was temporary. I met great people and spent a nice time. I was even at the next edition of Fame MMA 3. What I felt when my friend won is indescribable. Everything was nice to this day. The boy I met a few months ago and I like him quite strongly because I'm jealous of him as I've never found out about one thing a month ago I borrowed 50 zlotys from our friend when I was on a trip and forgot to give him back. He said it to the one I like. It turned out that he probably broke his knowledge of what I understood and he doesn't want to deal with me. It feels like a wreck, a garbage. It was the first time I was so concerned. I care a lot about him and even if he doesn't see it, she would like me to be more than just a buddy. Everything is collapsing now. I have outstanding loans to repay, I can't find a job, I've been drawn into a crime unconsciously and the day after tomorrow I have a case in court to relinquish my stepfather's inheritance. I feel that with this colleague it will not be the same anymore. Recently he also wrote what I am doing on 1 April, i. e. today. We were supposed to meet. Today, when asked if we see each other, he wrote to me that let's rest, that he will only meet a friend and return home. Totally he forgot that he was arranging with me. I didn't write it to him, but I took a special day off, even though I need a lot of money now. I feel very bad at the moment and I want to throw everything away and run away. Close yourself in the room and don't leave it any more. I want to cry. I know it's stupid because in total he didn't give me any clear signs than he treated me like a friend but I just started to care about him, and now when I lose this knowledge my heart breaks. For the first time in my life I felt something so strong that I could be jealous of the boy and now she wanted me not to get to know him because I wouldn't suffer at least.

Back to life, to write

Hello after a long time of interruptions caused by the lack of a laptop, a Tablet would be hard to write me after all. What has changed for me? Actually, it's still I am alone I am working as Deputy Head of the clothing in the living room, I had recently quite a few problems related to work, unfortunately, Currently working I lose the urge to try to, I do not know why but after the last incident that was upsetting to me does not work to me as well as it used to be. Now still looks to me, looks at me which is horrible because the envy of other people and lies in work broke. Sometimes I have the feeling that you've been searching for someone else in my place, that someone will find it just me exempt. It worries me because with the current Director despite small clashes both orally very well and also with the other girls at work, and actually one because the current new girl is some strange, not done me good impression so far, I've noticed that the same thought and my friend from work, with that great to me also works and gets along. Currently working so far, almost every day I got used to this, and now in the holidays as I work after 10 hours I will have a lot of free. I have completely no idea how to use this time to the truth. And going back in the future for two months will again be school and unfortunately being in 4th grade school I will have problem to be able to work out a month 180 hours as the Deputy what bothers me even more because I do not want to give up the position or work because currently in Poland after graduation not having knowledge is to anyone, it is not so easy.

In life, in fact, there are things worth fighting to the very end. - Paulo Coelho

How do you day has passed? Because me as somehow good, in high school I was only three hours. Was the day open to high school students so they can become familiar with the building and available opportunities for further learning. Showing them I noticed that they were very shy, afraid to try. I did so and I was able to go home. Ever since I came back to collect science for tomorrow because he is waiting for me tomorrow test of geography. So you have that you'd like to take to learn and you will not go? All of a sudden are there any commitments or you need to do something in the same time as you learn?
I have. I'm sitting already probably the fifth time next to the books and still went to them. Promises to be an interesting test this tomorrow.
And as for my good humor, I hope that this will remain so because if you've read my previous posts guessed that rarely are days when I'm in a good mood. In addition, I am pleased by the fact that over the nearly 4 months is more than 300 impressions. It really motivates you. Sometimes it is here by writing to let loose, relaxes. The addition of music, then what? It depends on the mood already.
Now I listen to while writing the text of the song:

I like it and you?

Unlucky Friday

So as the title says, today's the day for me was terribly unlucky. In the morning I had some events which as we know has not caused me a smile on his face. First bicycle padlock did not want to open, then fell me a new phone (Fortunately the whole), and at the end of the day, lost has just bought a Holster to your phone. A great day is not what. In addition, still I feel bad, and tomorrow in the morning until late in the evening. I do not know how tomorrow I stand those 10 hours with customer service, it will be a total massacre. I'd been in the House with a cup of warm milk with honey tomorrow but unfortunately I do not have such a possibility, I wanted to work on the weekends, now I have it. Thank you also to all those who are here, it's really nice to see that someone looks on your blog. Believe me it really motivates you to write.

The future and dreams-it is worth to fight for it

Due to the fact that most of my readers come from abroad, I don't see the point to write in Polish. You will definitely not be without language mistakes but I hope that you will forgive me.

Today surprised me really, the weather was very nice until you want to go out and greet the new day. I spent practically most of the day outside you do not regret. Now having some time off, I started to look around for a potential trip to the United States and Canada. So for your holidays. This is one of my dreams but when I looked at the prices on really shocked, so I began to look for participating in as a volunteer, but unfortunately I found nothing so far. By the way, had a look over a couple of College, which I really liked, and i think it's worth fighting about the possibility of studying in the USA or Canada. Is it just me? If you think so too? It is worth to go to America to study or volunteer holiday? May I found a long, but the family, which I had no way to know but I know, that is for sure. Oh, and one more I forgot. Recently I sent an excerpt from my story to one of the publications. I got the answer! I found it very easy to read and it's very addictive, but unfortunately I can only dream of being issued, the main reason is the lack of funds for its release.