I am blown away! After yesterday's post impressions very quickly grew to almost 500. It's really a feat. This excited me tremendously. Getting up in the morning when I saw the number of the day is immediately improved, each blogger seeing so fast growth will be really happy. Assuming your blog did not expect that will go on until the number of people. It's a very motivated to continue writing, letting their own feelings. You can forget about everyday life and, like reading a book mute so and writing for you. To this end and very thank for the fact that you are here.
How do you day has passed? Because me as somehow good, in high school I was only three hours. Was the day open to high school students so they can become familiar with the building and available opportunities for further learning. Showing them I noticed that they were very shy, afraid to try. I did so and I was able to go home. Ever since I came back to collect science for tomorrow because he is waiting for me tomorrow test of geography. So you have that you'd like to take to learn and you will not go? All of a sudden are there any commitments or you need to do something in the same time as you learn?
I have. I'm sitting already probably the fifth time next to the books and still went to them. Promises to be an interesting test this tomorrow.
And as for my good humor, I hope that this will remain so because if you've read my previous posts guessed that rarely are days when I'm in a good mood. In addition, I am pleased by the fact that over the nearly 4 months is more than 300 impressions. It really motivates you. Sometimes it is here by writing to let loose, relaxes. The addition of music, then what? It depends on the mood already.
Now I listen to while writing the text of the song:
My life sucks. This is the truth. Easter, and I was alone at home, there is no even to speak up. All friends spend their time with their families. I unfortunately do not have a family, or at least that you interested in getting involved is what I feel and what I want. Sitting at home all the time, think practically. About my life and what it will be about the fact that others at the same time are among the people who love them. It's funny because I think I was the only I would like to live with your parents feel their love and enjoy their presence. I was not ever feel love, parental always missed me since I can remember. Melancholy comes at me especially in the holidays when I sit alone trying to recall a happy moment in my life involved with the family, but there is no such. The only light they are memories my foster grandmother, which I think that I loved because I felt that despite her anger when I did something wrong. With her I was happy with it I spent the most beautiful moments, even a trip to England after all was not so beautiful. My grandmother gave me love and happiness, now when it is not I was quite alone. I don't have one with you. Nobody can tell you what I feel for the truth, I have no friends that I could like to confide that I understood and not rejected. Because who would want to know someone like me. Pretending to be someone else better to me is to live, it's easier. No need to explain why I am sad and I have tears on the cheeks. Like everyone I love and happiness. Is it so much? Do I wish impossible? . . . Sometimes I fall asleep and never wake up, dreaming forever
As the title says I have a free school rests, and actually I rest. In Poland, Easter is coming so it's time to relax. Today, half of the day I spent on cleaning the House, doing spring cleaning. Now I just write this sitting and resting because tomorrow morning waiting for me. I do not know what to do. I do not have or inclination to draw or too much something to read, and in his mind the emptiness so stories don't you finish so far. A lot of impressions came and still comes which makes me extremely excited and motivated to write. I do not know whether to refer here by accident or you are really curious to know if you want me to answer this will be happy to read your comment. Maybe you have an idea, maybe something you wish you find out or see it on my blog, or maybe you have an idea to improve it because something is missing? We will gladly accept any help.
And now something about the last coup. Can You not celebrate or tired but I can't leave it just like that. It hurts me when I hear about subsequent attacks. Tule killed people who are innocent. Tears running down his cheeks, a sadness after their relatives everywhere. I do not understand why these terrorists so they want to be shocked the whole nation, not only of the opinion a horrible issue itself but about the people of the same nationality. I'm not against refugees or with them. I think that we should help each other because each one of us can meet such tragedy, people are bad guys and good guys. You good need help in the face of such tragedy. The same certainly myself never advise.
It is my opinion, and what is yours?
So as the title says, today's the day for me was terribly unlucky. In the morning I had some events which as we know has not caused me a smile on his face. First bicycle padlock did not want to open, then fell me a new phone (Fortunately the whole), and at the end of the day, lost has just bought a Holster to your phone. A great day is not what. In addition, still I feel bad, and tomorrow in the morning until late in the evening. I do not know how tomorrow I stand those 10 hours with customer service, it will be a total massacre. I'd been in the House with a cup of warm milk with honey tomorrow but unfortunately I do not have such a possibility, I wanted to work on the weekends, now I have it. Thank you also to all those who are here, it's really nice to see that someone looks on your blog. Believe me it really motivates you to write.
Tak jak mówi sam tytuł za naszymi oknami pojawiło się przez wszystkich wyczekiwane niecierpliwie słoneczko. Dziś dzień był bardzo piękny, aż chciało się wyjść z domu i cieszyć się każdą chwilą, którą mamy. Jest to zapewne zwiastun zbliżającej się wielkimi krokami wiosny. Ja czekam niecierpliwie na cieplejsze dni by móc zrzucić zimowe kurtkę, ubrać się lżej. A wy też oczekujecie na takie cieplutkie dni? A jeśli chodzi o moje życie no cóż w nim nic się nie zmieniło choćbym bardzo tego chciała. Obecnie mam również stan zapalny prawego oka, a przez co? Przez dwufazowy płyn do demakijażu oczu firmy Lirene. Nie polecam go osobom, które nie miały z nim wcześniej do czynienia bo mogą się spotkać z przykrymi efektami ubocznymi. Wiem, że ostatnio strasznie mało piszę ale jakoś nie mam czasu, a to praca a to szkoła zawsze coś się znajdzie.
As the title says, for our Windows popped up by all eagerly awaited Sun. Today was a very beautiful until the wanted to get out of the House and enjoy every moment you have. This is probably a harbinger of the upcoming Spring strode. I am waiting eagerly for warmer days in order to be able to shed the winter jacket, dress lightly. And you also expect such light days? And when it comes to my life well in it nothing has changed very much, even if she wanted to. Now I also have inflammation of the right eye, and for what? By two-phase make-up Remover eyes company Lirene. I would not recommend it to people who don't have it to do because they can meet with unpleasant side effects. I know that the last terribly low write but somehow I do not have the time, and it's work and that the school always find something.
Tak dziś miałam lepszy dzień.Może i jest poniedziałek, ale tydzień rozpoczął się w miarę dobrze nie licząc jedynki z matematyki.Niechętnie wstawałam dziś z łóżka z racji, że była to 6 godzina bo na 8 do szkoły.Chętnie pospałabym do późna, niestety jest to nie możliwe. Jak co dzień poszłam do szkoły. Nie było źle. Dowiedziałam się, że moja siostra cioteczna, która jest mi bardzo bliska i nie wiem jak to będzie gdy wyjedzie na studia dowiedziała się, że z jej klasy jedyna zdała próbną maturę z polskiego. Wow jestem z niej dumna bo wiem jak trudno jest zdać. Nie miałam dziś powodu do smutku, aż do chwili gdy to piszę. Teraz tak myśląc o tym, że niedługo może wyjechać na studia robi mi się smutno na sercu bo wiem, że kontakt nie będzie już taki jak jest. Co ja zrobię sama? Tak to zawsze mogłam z nią porozmawiać, pośmiać się razem z czegoś, czy wypić piwo, a co będzie teraz? Nie wiem sama, jedynie co wiem,że sporo się zmienia w moim życiu i jeszcze zmieni. Codziennie staram się nie myśleć o smutnych rzeczach i mieć pozytywne myśli. Chcę dążyć do spełnienia marzeń. Nie chcę na nikim polegać. Nie pamiętam kiedy bym polegała na matce czy kimś innym. Życie nauczyło mnie do tej pory jednego,że można liczyć jedynie na siebie, na nikogo innego. Może to i smutne, ale taka jest prawda. Chcę mieć lepsze życie niż obecnie mam, nie musieć martwić się smutkami tylko móc się cieszyć każdą chwilą jaką mam. Chcę podążać za marzeniem, które gdy się postaram może być osiągalne. Chcę połączyć pasję z pracą. Chcę po prostu szczęścia. Czasem między znajomymi chodzą rozmowy o tym jakie będzie życie i czy chcą mieć dzieci. Ja na obecną chwilę nie, bo skąd mogę mieć pewność, że będę dobrą matką skoro nie miałam dobrego przykładu. Nie chcę narażać w przyszłości dziecka na to co ja od dziecka przechodzę. Wolę być sama niż kogoś krzywdzić, powodować u kogoś łzy. Tak samo jest ze związkiem. Miałam chłopaka, którego skrzywdziłam i wiem to. Kochał mnie, ale ja nie potrafiłam pokochać jego. Nie potrafiłam ograniczyć się, żyć nie tylko dla siebie. Nie wiem czy potrafię kochać kogoś, kogoś innego niż rodzinę. Nie widziałam zbyt dużo przykładów miłości ani sama jej nie doświadczyłam. Wiem, że może być dziwne skoro czytam romanse to nie zakochałam się, ale taka prawda. Czytam je bo dla mnie to świat, w którym chciała bym żyć. Uciekam od codzienności, przenoszę się gdzie indziej gdy czytam jakiś romans. Jestem wtedy wolna, czuję się lepiej.
So today I had a better day. Maybe it'sMonday, but a week had startedreasonably well, not counting ones inmathematics. Reluctant to wstawałamtoday from the bed because it was a 6hour because at 8. Happy pospałabym tolate, unfortunately this is not possible.Like every day I went to school. It wasnot bad. I found out that my great aunt'ssister, who is very close to me and i donot know how it will be when you leavefor college she learned that from herclass only passed the test with a highschool diploma. Wow I am proud of itbecause I know how hard it is to pass. Ihad no reason today to sorrow, until thetime when I write this. Now just thinkingabout it, that may soon go to Collegemake me sad at heart because I knowthat the contact will no longer be such asit is. What I will do the same? So, I couldalways talk to her, laugh together withsomething, or drink a beer, and what willhappen now? I do not know, only what Iknow, that a lot of changes in my life andstill have change. Every day I try not tothink about the sad things and havepositive thoughts. I want to strive for thefulfillment of dreams. Don't want to relyon anyone. I can't remember when I wasthe mother or someone else. Life hastaught me to date, one that you cancount only on themselves, on anyoneelse. Maybe it's sad but it is true. I want tohave a better life than I currently have,will not have to worry about sorrows justto be able to enjoy every moment I have.I want to follow your dream, that whenI'll try may be achievable. I want tocombine passion with work. I just wanthappiness. Sometimes between friendsgo around talking about what life will beand whether they want to have children.I do not at the moment, because howcan I be sure that I will be a good motherif I was not a good example. I don't wantto jeopardize the future of the child forwhat I'm going through a child. I preferto be alone than to hurt someone, causesomeone to tears. The same is true withthe. I had a boyfriend, which hurt and i know it. He lovedme,but I couldn't love him. I could notconfine themselves to live not only formyself. I do not know if I can lovesomeone, someone other than thefamily. I have not seen too manyexamples of love or same notexperienced before. I know that it can beweird since I read romances is not fell inlove with,but it's true. I read thembecause to me, it's a world in which Iwanted to live. Escape from theeveryday, I move elsewhere when I reada romance. I'm then free, I feel better.
A na koniec piosenka, która wpadła mi dziś w ucho:
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