Christmas Time☃🎅🏼👼🏼

Today, December 24th. For some it is a day full of love when the whole family meets together, in the end, this once a year. However, when some are others in this day are lonely. Think of others who do not have a loving family, they have no home, money. Simply in the world they can't afford anything. As each each giving gifts, not thinking about the fact that someone more likely to need although small gesture, not a gift worth 1000 gold, euro or dollars. Unfortunately, no one would think of such people. All only care about themselves. And where's the love for one's neighbor. God loves everyone no matter who he is. In this one day suddenly everyone pretends to be a believer. Because, as you can otherwise call it once throughout the year does not care about their faith, and in this one day so much believe? With the rest of the where the real Eve. Once she was not giving yourself as the most expensive, the best gifts only to spend time with family, the gifts were sometimes hand-made things. This was not something sophisticated. Remember also about others. People went out to the streets, to be able to share what they have with others. This has been replaced with expensive gifts for loved ones, drink alcohol, elaborate meals, expensive clothes. Christmas has lost its true charm, no longer are such as I used to and probably never will, not back to what it used to be. I this Christmas as I spend the same, without any elaborate dishes, gifts. I will not rozczulała over each other because I'm aware of the fact that there are so many people around the world who do not even have a roof over their heads. So I ask you the next time you are looking for some expensive gift think about others who are more in need of the money which will release someone to make you pleased. Not a better gift would be the ability to make others feel better someone? Make the smile on someone's face?

Best Friend? Who?

Sitting in front of a laptop overtook me, a thought that I think not only me touched. For sure in life also had a situation where the doubt that you have real friends. I do not have them, I say this being a 100%. I'm not so that someone I can talk to without barriers. Maybe it's better. I prefer to withhold some things because I know that I could later regret that he she knows. You can never trust someone in 100% because always the few percent of this uncertainty will be in the US. Is an inevitable part of the US. There will always be risks and fear. It may seem strange to you the unthinkable but it's the truth, I do not want to trust anyone in 100% because I do not want to suffer. In humans it is easy to drive. Little, however, we are talking about your feelings. Few people who openly talks about what he thinks or feels. A friend is the one who should go first. And what if he only pretends to be our friend? We can't be sure. We do not know the truth. 

A lot of people do not dare however prevent himself thinks he can be denied. Here on the blog I move topics that hardly anyone dares to. I wouldn't dare to write in your own language, none of my environment does not know about this blog. However, this blog lets me sometimes feel better. Throw yourself is what I feel. 

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Me and My Live

Here I throw posts and do not know what? Probably the only for myself because like for someone else when no one is there. Rather, you are not interested in the life of a boring Polish 19 year old girls with problems in everyday life. Well, however, I next I wrote because I find it easier to just withstand with all that surrounds me with life because sometimes me it transcends, probably not only me, but also i was. Sometimes everyone has such thoughts where has enough life would like to shut up in an empty room and shout. Well life is shit. Will never be well I guess, or at least as we wanted to. No but what next we go through life. Soon waiting me to start the next stage in life. Currently waiting for me, and then studies of course if I pass a high school diploma because if not the same I do not know what I do, not thinking about the possibility of not takes the exam. Well life is unpredictable so I can't predict what will happen tomorrow, let alone speaking for several months. 

Day of monotony

Long ago I was not. This is because, unfortunately, the lack of time. Now being in a class 4 technical college I have very little time for myself especially since I work every weekend. For me nothing has changed. Already working elsewhere, but other than that it's all the same. I still sometimes moments when I'm sick of everything but I try not to think about it although sometimes it is very heavy. However, I know that there are people that I can count. One such person is my sister, niece currently studying and living in Olsztyn, but sometimes arrives. Life is not easy, always throws us the logs under your feet. Sometimes we laugh, and for a while we cry. I, being the person who survives everything I have a harder time because everything in excess sometimes feel but never show what I feel with the other, all the feelings of the soul in itself. I can not in front of anyone to open enough to be honest to pain talk, say what you really feel. This is beyond my capabilities. Terribly concerned about others and I worry about them, but I can not share their problems with others. Sometimes we have moments where we have enough, I at least I have. A moment when I would like someone all say release it with each other, stop choke but I can not simply. I'm afraid that I will become a public persona, that someone did not treat seriously what I say, and then it's more being . . .

In life, in fact, there are things worth fighting to the very end. - Paulo Coelho

How do you day has passed? Because me as somehow good, in high school I was only three hours. Was the day open to high school students so they can become familiar with the building and available opportunities for further learning. Showing them I noticed that they were very shy, afraid to try. I did so and I was able to go home. Ever since I came back to collect science for tomorrow because he is waiting for me tomorrow test of geography. So you have that you'd like to take to learn and you will not go? All of a sudden are there any commitments or you need to do something in the same time as you learn?
I have. I'm sitting already probably the fifth time next to the books and still went to them. Promises to be an interesting test this tomorrow.
And as for my good humor, I hope that this will remain so because if you've read my previous posts guessed that rarely are days when I'm in a good mood. In addition, I am pleased by the fact that over the nearly 4 months is more than 300 impressions. It really motivates you. Sometimes it is here by writing to let loose, relaxes. The addition of music, then what? It depends on the mood already.
Now I listen to while writing the text of the song:

I like it and you?

Easter-tears, melancholy

My life sucks. This is the truth. Easter, and I was alone at home, there is no even to speak up. All friends spend their time with their families. I unfortunately do not have a family, or at least that you interested in getting involved is what I feel and what I want. Sitting at home all the time, think practically. About my life and what it will be about the fact that others at the same time are among the people who love them. It's funny because I think I was the only I would like to live with your parents feel their love and enjoy their presence. I was not ever feel love, parental always missed me since I can remember. Melancholy comes at me especially in the holidays when I sit alone trying to recall a happy moment in my life involved with the family, but there is no such. The only light they are memories my foster grandmother, which I think that I loved because I felt that despite her anger when I did something wrong. With her I was happy with it I spent the most beautiful moments, even a trip to England after all was not so beautiful. My grandmother gave me love and happiness, now when it is not I was quite alone. I don't have one with you. Nobody can tell you what I feel for the truth, I have no friends that I could like to confide that I understood and not rejected. Because who would want to know someone like me. Pretending to be someone else better to me is to live, it's easier. No need to explain why I am sad and I have tears on the cheeks. Like everyone I love and happiness. Is it so much? Do I wish impossible? . . . Sometimes I fall asleep and never wake up, dreaming forever

The future and dreams-it is worth to fight for it

Due to the fact that most of my readers come from abroad, I don't see the point to write in Polish. You will definitely not be without language mistakes but I hope that you will forgive me.

Today surprised me really, the weather was very nice until you want to go out and greet the new day. I spent practically most of the day outside you do not regret. Now having some time off, I started to look around for a potential trip to the United States and Canada. So for your holidays. This is one of my dreams but when I looked at the prices on really shocked, so I began to look for participating in as a volunteer, but unfortunately I found nothing so far. By the way, had a look over a couple of College, which I really liked, and i think it's worth fighting about the possibility of studying in the USA or Canada. Is it just me? If you think so too? It is worth to go to America to study or volunteer holiday? May I found a long, but the family, which I had no way to know but I know, that is for sure. Oh, and one more I forgot. Recently I sent an excerpt from my story to one of the publications. I got the answer! I found it very easy to read and it's very addictive, but unfortunately I can only dream of being issued, the main reason is the lack of funds for its release.

Słońce za oknem ! The sun behind the window!

Tak jak mówi sam tytuł za naszymi oknami pojawiło się przez wszystkich wyczekiwane niecierpliwie słoneczko. Dziś dzień był bardzo piękny, aż chciało się wyjść z domu i cieszyć się każdą chwilą, którą mamy. Jest to zapewne zwiastun zbliżającej się wielkimi krokami wiosny. Ja czekam niecierpliwie na cieplejsze dni by móc zrzucić zimowe kurtkę, ubrać się lżej. A wy też oczekujecie na takie cieplutkie dni? A jeśli chodzi o moje życie no cóż w nim nic się nie zmieniło choćbym bardzo tego chciała. Obecnie mam również stan zapalny prawego oka, a przez co? Przez dwufazowy płyn do demakijażu oczu firmy Lirene. Nie polecam go osobom, które nie miały z nim wcześniej do czynienia bo mogą się spotkać z przykrymi efektami ubocznymi. Wiem, że ostatnio strasznie mało piszę ale jakoś nie mam czasu, a to praca a to szkoła zawsze coś się znajdzie.


As the title says, for our Windows popped up by all eagerly awaited Sun. Today was a very beautiful until the wanted to get out of the House and enjoy every moment you have. This is probably a harbinger of the upcoming Spring strode. I am waiting eagerly for warmer days in order to be able to shed the winter jacket, dress lightly. And you also expect such light days? And when it comes to my life well in it nothing has changed very much, even if she wanted to. Now I also have inflammation of the right eye, and for what? By two-phase make-up Remover eyes company Lirene. I would not recommend it to people who don't have it to do because they can meet with unpleasant side effects. I know that the last terribly low write but somehow I do not have the time, and it's work and that the school always find something.