Back to life, to write

Hello after a long time of interruptions caused by the lack of a laptop, a Tablet would be hard to write me after all. What has changed for me? Actually, it's still I am alone I am working as Deputy Head of the clothing in the living room, I had recently quite a few problems related to work, unfortunately, Currently working I lose the urge to try to, I do not know why but after the last incident that was upsetting to me does not work to me as well as it used to be. Now still looks to me, looks at me which is horrible because the envy of other people and lies in work broke. Sometimes I have the feeling that you've been searching for someone else in my place, that someone will find it just me exempt. It worries me because with the current Director despite small clashes both orally very well and also with the other girls at work, and actually one because the current new girl is some strange, not done me good impression so far, I've noticed that the same thought and my friend from work, with that great to me also works and gets along. Currently working so far, almost every day I got used to this, and now in the holidays as I work after 10 hours I will have a lot of free. I have completely no idea how to use this time to the truth. And going back in the future for two months will again be school and unfortunately being in 4th grade school I will have problem to be able to work out a month 180 hours as the Deputy what bothers me even more because I do not want to give up the position or work because currently in Poland after graduation not having knowledge is to anyone, it is not so easy.